Walk the Talk

It's funny how some people don't walk the talk. For example, someone tells you firmly, straight in the face :

I'm not going shopping.

And the next thing you know, you see that person in the same shopping complex as you, shopping.

Hoho.. I wonder would that person feel embarassed with what he or she said earlier?

P.S : Cracks me up each time when I think of the scenario. =D

Forked Road

I am standing at a forked road, and I dunno which to choose. I thought I've already made up my mind earlier about it, but somehow, now I am not sure.

One of the roads look fresh, one which I havent walked on before. I would love to walk on it. But for the other road, I have walked on it before. Should I choose it again or should I choose the road that's not taken?

So many things to be taken into consideration to make a decision. I couldnt possibly walk on both roads. I need to choose one.

But the question is : Which one?

The Mask

Wow. I ran out of ideas on what to write here. Each time I see my blog, I ask myself this question:

What to write?

I wanted to write something which does not sound too whiny, too complaining, too depressing, too emo-ish. I want to tell my problems but I am afraid of people knowing. I want to share with people but I do not know what to share.

Hence, I did not update my blog for a long time.

For now, I will try to write something. Lets see..*thinking*

*snaps fingers*

Got it. Ever watch the movie - The Mask - starring Jim Carrey? You know, the one with a green face? Now, ever since he put on that mask, he became a different person.

Lets ask ourselves this question : Does each of us have a mask that we put on everyday while going through our daily routine? You would be lying if you say you dont, because sometimes we need that mask.

Why?

Each of us have our own weaknesses and its in our nature to hide those weaknesses in order not to let others know. We are afraid of how people might see us, and therefore we try to hide our true selves.

We appear to be happy while deep down we are hurt. We appear to be strong, even though we are weak inside. We appear to know everything, but actually we do not know anything at all. We appear to be on good terms with people around us, but we actually don't.

Because of insecurities, we put on masks and we pretend to be someone other than ourselves. We think that as long as people do not know who we really are, we are safe. We do not have to care how people judge us and say about us, coz we know we appear to be good most of the time.

But what happens when the mask has been revealed? Can we honestly admit what our true selves really are? Are we willing to share with people our weaknesses and our insecurities? Or are we just gonna pretend to be a different person for the rest of our lives?

That is something to think about. I, for one, admit that I had a mask before this, that I put on. But then as time goes by and I got close with a group of friends, I began to drop that mask and just be who I am.

Some people think I am easy to predict coz I am transparent, but being too transparent scares me sometimes, because other people see right through me and they seem to know me better than I know myself!

Now that scares me. :-S

Tragedies

Been following the news lately and read about the tragedies that happened. Coincidentally, today is the 15th anniversary of the day where Block One of Highland Towers collapsed in 1993, killing 48 people in total. Now, a similar tragedy happened in Bukit Antarabangsa.

I feel kinda sad when tragedies occur and lives are claimed.

When oh when would the developers pay more attention to the safety of the residents on a hillside during construction instead of thinking of making as much profit as possible?

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I was in Midvalley on Sunday since it was quite boring in the apartment and due to the many numbers of public holidays this month. So a friend and I decided to do some CNY shopping. The mall was crowded with people doing their Christmas/CNY shopping in one shot. The only place I was longing to get to was the MPH. I was planning to get the set of Twilight books. Since I could not find them anywhere in the huge bookstore [also a bit lazy to look around for it =p], the best way was to go to the Enquiry Desk and ask for its location. The response I got was:

Twilight? Sudah habis

Oh my goodness! T.T Guess have to wait for the excitement of the Twilight movie to die down and then try getting my hands on the books. :D

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On another note, gonna be busy for two days. I hope to have the strength to endure all the setbacks and unexpected twist of events. Also, I hope things will go well and end well.

Fairytales

Fairytales. We read and hear all about them when we were little - Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin and etc etc. Our parents bought the books for us and i'm sure some of us are still keeping them,chucked somewhere in the cupboard. These stories have a similar ending - "And they all live happily ever after". Wow..such wonderful endings that gives us a sense of joy and happiness after we finish reading them. Its a no wonder that every children [including me] dream of finding their Prince Charming and having a "happily ever after" later in their lives.

Apart from books, the movies shown on TV also portray similar endings. I watched Barbie,The Island Princess yesterday. Yes, I am watching kids shows now. lol..i have always been fascinated by Barbie's hair..so nice and silky and straight. Even when i am in the supermarket,if i ever come across the toys section,I would look at Barbie and admire her hair. Haha.. a weird hobby i have right? Anyway, we are way off topic here. Back to the original topic. As i was saying, the plot of the story is predictable. A princess found her Prince Charming but they could not be together due to some unforseen [predictable] circumstances, throw in a villian or two [in this case, an evil Queen is involved] to make the plot more exciting and towards the climax, the villian was found, and all obstacles are clear and then the scene where "they live happily ever after".

Yes, I do get a nice feeling after watching the movie. Then i thought, sometimes we do need some fairytales in our lives to remind us that life could change for the good. No matter how tough the road is, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Even though we do not see the solutions to our problems right now, when the time comes where we have to face them square in the face, we shall know what to do. The solution is just there in front of us. I guess we all just have to believe that we could also live a fairytale life if we try hard enough. Who knows right? *shrugs*

Tomorrow

Tomorrow would be the start of another week. Another long,hectic,stressful,full of madness,emotions-flying-everywhere week.

The sole purpose of the weekend is to prepare myself for this coming week,to rest enough to battle it out tomorrow,to actually have time to myself.

Starting tomorrow,all hell is gonna break loose. I sure hope i would be able to cope with the upcoming challenges,setbacks and also the two tests set for the week : Thermo on Wed night and Linear Algebra on Friday night.

After this week,there comes the one-week holiday.whee~~

Why is Love so Hard to Find?

Everyday,i look around
Seems that no one's ever satisfied
Could it be,that underneath
We've all got something to hide?

From the moment we arrive
We want to fill the space inside
We all need to feel alive

If its love that keeps us breathing
Give us something to believe in
Is it fear that makes us blind?
Tell me,why is love so hard to find?

If we hear so much bout it
And we can't go on without it
Let the mystery unwind
Tell me,why is love so hard to find?

All i know is when u find it
Even earth can feel like you're in heaven
Tell me now,unlock the secret
Help us all to find the hidden treasure.

~editted from Jesse McCartney's song "Why is Love so Hard to Find?"~

Mind

As i walked in the night,
a bright star shone in the sky.
i havent seen one,
in such a long time.

Aeroplanes,
Such fantastic machines to me,
i dunno why,
but i just love seeing them in the sky.
sometimes they appear tiny,like a speck-
sometimes they appear large right above me.
oh,just how wonderful to see them,
see them fly above me.

The Past,
wat are you doin here?
why are you here?
i thought i have left you,
somewhere far far away,
in the back of my mind.
why do u come back?
i thought i have forgotten bout you,
but here you are!

It couldnt be,
It couldnt be real.
It must be my mind playing tricks on me,
like it usually does,
before i shut you away.

I need to calm down,
and shut you away,
seal it tight in the Box,
so that you wont appear
in front of me,
never,ever again.