Free Hugs Campaign

[Yay! Finally got the photos that i needed]

Free Hugs Campaign. Ever heard of that? My group decided to do this campaign for our Projek Khidmat Siswa. Basically we are trying to spread the love around, meet new people, cheer people up and also give them the confidence to face the day. Those are some of the objectives of this campaign.

This campaign lasted for three days and was held in COIT, the Admin Building and also College of Engineering Block M.

Here are some of the photos to give a clearer picture of what this whole campaign is all about:

The preparations

We are in action!

Day 1 in COIT

Day 2 in Admin Building

Day 3 in College of Engineering Block M

Volunteers along the way came to join us too.

Adoob, an international student. He's sporting!! ^^

Alex - the guy in white hugging someone. He's also a tutor =p It was fun having him around.

Chew - this guy just wanna pose with the board. not exactly a volunteer =.='''

Some of the people i have hugged :

In COIT : some unknown stranger

In COIT : Some unknown stranger

In Admin Building : Miss Elya-my Chem lecturer ^^

In Admin Building : Agnes

In Admin Building : Some unknown stranger

In BM : Pn Noreliza, my DE lecturer last sem

In BM : A senior 'seducing' me while Reuben looks on 'jealously'. LOL

In BM : My previous housemate

In BM : Redia

In BM : Shoun Ying

We collect signatures too!!

The soft board in COIT on the 1st day

The soft board in the Admin Building at the end of Day 2

Some group photos with some strangers:

People pass by.
They laughed.
They avoided us.
Some smiled politely and said " No thanks".
An international guy said "Free Hugs equal to gay!" and walked off.

But to us, doing something different than other groups and also something new gave us a great feeling. We enjoyed doing it, well to me at least. Cheers!!

-Huggables '08-

Bad news

Last night, while i was sleeping and waking up to study for Moral midterm test, an sms entered my phone. i was half conscious when it came and i groggily read the msg. Then i continued sleeping till i finally woke up at 2 smth. Remembering i had an sms earlier, i read the contents again. It was from Anita and it says :

Remember farah fatin, our primary sch mate? she's not feeling well.she has some rare skin disease that docs are not sure about. there are boils all over her body. eating,drinking and any body contact is painful. please pray for her! she's in KL to seek treatment. tq

I stared at the message,dumbfounded. Of coz i still remember Farah. How could i forget her, the one who sat next to me in Year 4, the one who went off to MRSM during secondary sch? I havent seen her for years! And now to be slapped in the face with this piece of news is just too...shocking!! I feel sad for her. Someone of my age is suffering from this illness that doctors are not sure of. Tell me, how do you want me to feel? T.T

Yes, i will pray for her, pray that the doctors will find a way to cure her so that she can get back living a normal life.

Disconnected

I suddenly realised how much i missed Lindsay Lohan's 1st album (2004). One of the songs that got me hooked on again is Disconnected. Nice song, can relate to a lot of things. Listen to it if you wanna try her out. Here are the lyrics:

Lindsay Lohan - Disconnected

Sleeping awake and awake when i'm sleeping
I've got a dry kind of thirst when drenched
On sunny days all i can see is the shadow
And i'm not above being under
And i'm at the brink though i know that i'm empty
And i always hide when its my turn to seek
My only believe is not to have faith in believing
Before i begin i'm over

Chorus
(Disconnected)
Broken off again
And i'm not the lonely when i'm lonely by myself
(Disconnected)
Numb in the pain again, I always back track forward
Coz all in all i'm disconnected

Quietly loud while i'm noisily silent
Keep holding my breath when i'm trying to breathe
Swimming against all of my waves and the rapids
I only win when i'm losing

Repeat Chorus

I just wanna live my life sedated
Coz i love driving myself away
Disfunctionally sane dont give a damn
I cant comprehend what i understand
Disconnected

Numb in the pain again, I always back track forward
Coz all in all i'm disconnected
Broken off again
And i'm not lonely when i'm lonely by myself
Numb in the pain again, I always back track forward
Coz all in all i'm disconnected

Truth

As i sit here,wondering,thinking,why things turned out the way it did. I seriously dunno. How could things have gone so wrong? How could i have been so careless? Did i do something wrong indirectly and it leads to the situation i am in right now?

This would be the longest night i have to endure. i doubt i would be able to get any sleep tonight. The fact of knowing the real truth tomorrow looms ahead. The idea of facing the truth is just too horrifying and i feel small.

That means i have to be mentally prepared for all the worst case scenarios that could happen.

Even so,i found a true friend tonight. Someone who's willing to help and doesnt really mind doing so. Someone's who's there for me when i am desperate,at a dead end,with nowhere to turn to. Someone who listens and offers possible solutions. Someone who tried cheering me up with kind words and encouragement. Thanks and i really appreciate it a lot! ^^

Crush

This is the new single from the runner-up of American Idol...David Archuleta!! :D

David Archuleta- Crush

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you ever feel the same way bout me
Its just too much, just too much

Why do i keep running from the truth
All i ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And i just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when you are all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am i crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when i look at you
Are you holding back, like the way i do
Coz i try and try to walk away
But i know this crush aint going away, going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See its a chance we gotta take
Cause i believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Repeat Chorus

Why do i keep running from the truth
All i ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And i just got to know..

D0 you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am i crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when i look at you
Are you holding back, like the way i do
Coz i try and try to walk away
But i know this crush aint going away (x5)

Fairytales

Fairytales. We read and hear all about them when we were little - Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin and etc etc. Our parents bought the books for us and i'm sure some of us are still keeping them,chucked somewhere in the cupboard. These stories have a similar ending - "And they all live happily ever after". Wow..such wonderful endings that gives us a sense of joy and happiness after we finish reading them. Its a no wonder that every children [including me] dream of finding their Prince Charming and having a "happily ever after" later in their lives.

Apart from books, the movies shown on TV also portray similar endings. I watched Barbie,The Island Princess yesterday. Yes, I am watching kids shows now. lol..i have always been fascinated by Barbie's hair..so nice and silky and straight. Even when i am in the supermarket,if i ever come across the toys section,I would look at Barbie and admire her hair. Haha.. a weird hobby i have right? Anyway, we are way off topic here. Back to the original topic. As i was saying, the plot of the story is predictable. A princess found her Prince Charming but they could not be together due to some unforseen [predictable] circumstances, throw in a villian or two [in this case, an evil Queen is involved] to make the plot more exciting and towards the climax, the villian was found, and all obstacles are clear and then the scene where "they live happily ever after".

Yes, I do get a nice feeling after watching the movie. Then i thought, sometimes we do need some fairytales in our lives to remind us that life could change for the good. No matter how tough the road is, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Even though we do not see the solutions to our problems right now, when the time comes where we have to face them square in the face, we shall know what to do. The solution is just there in front of us. I guess we all just have to believe that we could also live a fairytale life if we try hard enough. Who knows right? *shrugs*

A Trip Down Memory Lane

As i sat there at my study table,unable to fathom or figure out the solution to a question,where i stared at the paper and the paper stared back at me,and the sinking feeling in my stomach that time is running out, i opened the top drawer and peered inside. A lot of stuff. Ok..lets see what 'junk' i have in there....

~ Drama script in Form 2 where i play the Stepmother in the modern version of Cinderella. pretty hilarious as i read back and i could still remember the preparations [going over to Madeleine's house a few nights] and how i acted on that day,all the scenes and expressions. Too bad that i couldnt remember who my stepdaughters though. I have some ideas [one of them might be Juliana] but i couldnt be sure. hmm....certainly brings back a lot of memories. I could not remember who won the competition. Its either my class or the 2nd class. Anyone remembered? LOL

~ Yellowing papers ranging from folscap papers,testpads,all the sample test papers,exam papers and answer scripts...i din realise i am still keeping them!!

~ I found Center Stage..an English magazine published by the seniors in Form 5. Too bad when it came to our year, the magazine my friends did was banned [due to some inappropriate words used] and shredded to pieces using my then-principal,Miss Helen's paper shredder. =.=lll

~ A story which i wrote for, hmm, 5-6 sheets of A4 papers. started a few months after SPM before entering UNITEN and still remain unfinished. i was laughing myself out as i read back, and marveling at how i managed to come up with a story like that and actually wrote it out. *shakes head* Maybe i should start thinking of plots and start writing stories again. I continued a little from where i stopped,totally ignoring the fact that time is running out. =.='

~ Choral Speaking script back in Form 5 where we competed in the district level and lost to SGI in their own school grounds. only managed to get runner-up. *urgh* the experience was amazing though.

~ The script for my speech on Miss Leow's retirement day back in 2004. Wonder how she's doing and where she is now. She's certainly one of the best Chemistry teacher to have around. ^^

Such things do bring back sweet memories. =D

Vacation

On Sunday, yes,its the day after i got back from KL for the holidays, my family and i went for a holiday trip in Penang. Here are some pics. Like they say, a picture speaks a thousand words. So for once, I am gonna let the pictures do all the talking. =p

~ok..all set to begin!~

~one of the holes dug to hunt for lalas ^^~

~A dog lying in a hole...~

~Another dog along the beach~

~The sunset. Ham tan wong ^^~

~The lalas that we managed to collect~

~Fried with tomato sauce and ready to eat =D~

Patsy: All Grown Up!

As soon as i entered my dad's car after reaching Taiping on Saturday afternoon, i saw something black in the car.

Guess who this is?

This is...............

Haha..yea,you guessed it! its my lil pup who has grown sooo much after not seeing her for 6 weeks!! It was a bit sad that she was a bit scared at me at first. Maybe because she couldnt recognise me. :( But as soon as we reached home,she warmed up to me instantly - rolling around,biting and playing. =D

She's still as naughty as ever,only that she bullies her own Dad as well. tsk tsk.. All i know is,having Patsy in the family has changed some of us. My Mum in particular. She isnt really fond of dogs but ever since Patsy was born,she loves her to bits simply because Patsy's cute. Well,of course she's cute; she's a pup! =D

me and the pup. Can u spot her? =p

Justin

As Agnes was driving to COIT with me in her car, i gained a bit of insight of the activity tonight. Its a forum where Techflow has invited some of the alumni[s] to be the panelists. One of the people she mentioned was Justin John Papu.

When i heard he was going to be there, i was excited because he was my Physics 2 lab instructor last time.and a very good one too ^^ Its been a while since i last saw him. hmm,the last time i saw him was on the 1st floor of Block L where he was sitting on the steps of the stairs,waiting for the earlier class to finish their lab. I was there waiting to enter Digital Logic Lab last sem and I so happened to notice he was there...hence,the conversation started.greetings were exchanged. I'm surprised that he could still remember me.LOL...

there was one incident that happened during the sem when i was under him. We were doing Lab Experiment 10 on Snell's Law. Since all of us hadnt studied the chapter yet [we only studied it in Special Sem...so that explained the blurness] we tend to get blur and when it came to answering the theory questions,we struggled. That time i was in the same team as Tang and Jiashen and we did the report together. Then a group came and borrowed our report,so we thought it was ok to lend it to them. But then,i think it was after a few days that Justin sent us all an e-mail saying that most of us did not do well in Experiment 10 and he included in his e-mail with this phrase : You know what i mean. lol..it meant that some of us were copying from each other and he wasnt pleased about it. That came across as something hilarious but being accused of letting other people copied our work or copying from other people,we werent going to let that slide. Thus,the 3 of us went to see Justin and explained the situation and i think he corrected our marks for that experiment. heh..nice guy ^^

So seeing him again after so long was quite exciting actually. There are a few questions posted for the panelists to answer and lets just say,Justin is comical in watever he does. He doesnt look eager to answer the questions but prefer to let his other two "comrades" to answer.haha...and he's sitting in between the both of them! hilarious! but he did answer some questions.lol..after the forum,too bad i couldnt get the chance to actually exchange a few words with him because he was busy talking to Yohen [one of the panelists] and Agnes was about to send me back..so,i had to leave. T.T It was nice seeing him again. ^^

Me and my Subconscious Self

Last night went out for a movie after Thermo Test 1...simply because i want to get my mind off the test. the test? well,lets just say all of us were racing against time to finish 3 ques. Totally no time to think at all. Its like we need to write something down instantly,right there and then. No time for thinking [unless you are lucky la]. To me,i did my best and now everything is in God's hands.

After coming back,i bathed...chatted with people online and i plopped down on my bed at 1 smth,thinking that i would wake up at 2am to do some work. When i woke up,i glanced at the clock and it showed : 2.55am. So i thought, oh,ok...its just close to 3am and i happily got out of bed. I sat in front of the comp to check something and then i glanced at the clock again. Wait..how come the back cover is detached from the clock? i grabbed the clock and turned it around. The battery was disconnected! #$%@ looked at the time on my handphone and my comp : 6.50am!! Wat the Hell??

Then slowly,my memory came back to me,faint and vague. i remembered that i tried to detach the battery from the clock, maybe because of the ringing alarm in my handphone. Me,being groggy thought the sound was coming from the clock itself! hence,i tried to make the ringing stop so that i could continue sleeping,completely unaware that it wasnt the clock ringing! lol...thats my subconscious self doing. I think that was when i just switched off the alarm on my phone. *shrugs* i guess that must be it coz i dun have any recollections about it.LOL

Life

My life. What about it? It revolves around work,studies,tests,exams and grades. Totally no life at all. No one wants to live a life like that,but I do. Having a life like that doesnt mean I dun get to enjoy. oh...i do enjoy sometimes,trust me. But my whole life at this point is all about those i've mentioned above.

People. What about they? They see whether you have any value to them. If they find you to be useful, they will come to you for help. Otherwise, what the hell they care bout you! I hate these kind of people the most, whereby they will come,with a smile on their bloody-pretending face and asked "Can i borrow.....?" @#%& Heck, you don't even talk to me all these while and now you,coming to me to ask for my work? =.=lll

Sometimes life is as frustrating as it is.

Patsy

oh..did i mention that i have a pup?? yea,i do. Its been...3 months now. Her name is Patsy and here are some of her photos right from when she's born. =) Like mother,like daughter...

She loves to sleep in this form when she's still young.
having a bone when she's old enough..

Isn't she just a darling? =p

I miss her. I miss playing with her. I miss seeing her grow up,explore new things and bully her dear mum. Lol..dun take this pup too lightly,she really knows how to bully her own mum! LOL

My bro has just sent me a video about her. She has grown so much since i last saw her,and she's thinner too. Could it be Dad is trying not to feed her that much? hmmm

Tomorrow

Tomorrow would be the start of another week. Another long,hectic,stressful,full of madness,emotions-flying-everywhere week.

The sole purpose of the weekend is to prepare myself for this coming week,to rest enough to battle it out tomorrow,to actually have time to myself.

Starting tomorrow,all hell is gonna break loose. I sure hope i would be able to cope with the upcoming challenges,setbacks and also the two tests set for the week : Thermo on Wed night and Linear Algebra on Friday night.

After this week,there comes the one-week holiday.whee~~

Different sides

There are different sides to ppl - the good side,the ugly side,the serious side,the angry side,the fun side- and all these make up the individual.

On Thurs (7 Aug) i went for Techflow weekly gathering. at first i have no intention at all to attend this sort of gathering ever since Foundation,but then i was advised by Kelv to attend it on that night,simply because he could see that my head was full with stuff. my head indeed was full of stuff - 2 quizzes on the next day and not to mention the recommended problems for Thermo werent finished! T.T initially,i thought of just not going but since Willz had already informed Agnes that i would be going and that she would fetching me,so i thought, "why not?"

After getting ready,i looked at myself in the mirror.i could hardly recognise the person in the mirror coz i certainly did not look like that in the past few days! my jaw dropped. for a few minutes,i stared at my reflection and smiled. i missed this side of me, the side where i like to have fun...going out with ppl and simply enjoy myself,burden free.

When i reached the venue,i saw a lot of people; most of them,i know.lol...they are really fun people. Even talking to them would make me start laughing and joking with them.thats when i knew i would be having a great time and not thinking bout the quizzes on the next day. The talk on Peer Pressure was simply superb. The speaker told us her experience and we really enjoyed it. all in all,it was nice to release myself from all the burdens i have been carrying for 2 hours and to just have fun. Then after that,it was back to studying,but i felt i somehow was more relaxed than i was before.

Thanks Kelv and Willz! both of u did a good job in influencing me to come along.lol

Lip Balm

She was sitting there,
doing her work,
concentrating hard,
and even frowned sometimes.

Then,
she took something,
out of her bag
and applied to her lips.

Joker,
sitting opposite her,
suddenly asked " What's that?"
She replied "lip balm".
Still out of curiousity,
he asked "What for?"
Socks replied "cracking lips".

Joker,
never seen a lip balm before,
took it and...
smelled it.

She started packing,
its time for her class!
Just then,Gloves came in,
and saw her. (whee!)

She glanced at him,
but she did not say anything.
Gloves, oblivious to that fact,
continued to paste a smile on his face
and flashed his perverted grin.

During dinner,
Gloves were told bout the lip balm.
Almost immediately..
he said "I want to use too"
"That would be indirect kissing!"
Panda exclaimed.

And so,
thats the end
of the Lip Balm story.

Note : All names have been changed due to privacy reasons.have fun guessing their real identities! =p

badminton

Badminton. whee~~ i was happy that i could play the sport again,here in UNITEN. at least it helped me to forget my burden for 2 hours and totally work out some sweat,play,have fun,laugh and joke with my friends here.

it was my 1st time playing at night. when i was back in Taiping for the hols, my friends and i would usually play in the afternoon. hmm,kinda missed the sessions though. =p (if u are reading this Yuin,i'm sure u would remember all the funny and memorable moments playing with Kuhan and Ai Mei...=p )

here's a poem for the day:

Sitting here,
Staring at the page in front of me,
It stared back at me.
I frowned,
thinking why it is hard
to actually see a way around it.

i looked through the pages of the book,
hoping that the answer would be there.
None!
Horror struck me,
panic rose in me.
i felt helpless,
What am i to do??

Then,
I started thinking,
started planning ways
to overcome this situation.
Soon i found the solution
but i do not know
how well it will turn out.

i will never know
if i dun try it.
No matter how,
i will try and try
'cause i know
if i try,
i will overcome the odds and hurdles
in front of me.
And it will lead me to achieve my goal!

facts

The facts about lack of sleep:
~ it makes you sleepy the next day (of coz)
~ you tend to snap at people who say the slightest thing that triggers your anger
~ once you start sleeping,you would never want to leave the bed.AT ALL!

The facts of having coffee:
~ sure,caffeine helps you to stay awake
~ you will be in a 'hyper mode' and its as though you can do a lot of things
~ it will make you to start telling the TRUTH.nothing but the whole truth. (uh-oh)
~ your body will be immune to it someday (T.T)

Avril

whenever i need something,something to get me to continue doing my work,i would listen to Avril Lavigne's albums,singing her songs outloud (and risking embarassment if my housemates overhear my singing *blush*)... hey,it works especially after i have been through an emotional roller-coaster ride. :)

Why

Why,
I question myself.
Why...why did You appear again?
Why couldnt i suppress You?
Why are You in front of me again?
Why wouldnt You just leave me alone?
What have i done?
Wtf are You doing here?!!

Leave me alone.
Leave me to live my life
the way i want it.
Go back,
go back to where You belong.
You do KNOW where You belong,dammit-
Yea,in the Box.
So get in there,
so i can seal You in there,
and You couldnt come out,
to make my life miserable again.

And this time...
Its for REAL!

Why is Love so Hard to Find?

Everyday,i look around
Seems that no one's ever satisfied
Could it be,that underneath
We've all got something to hide?

From the moment we arrive
We want to fill the space inside
We all need to feel alive

If its love that keeps us breathing
Give us something to believe in
Is it fear that makes us blind?
Tell me,why is love so hard to find?

If we hear so much bout it
And we can't go on without it
Let the mystery unwind
Tell me,why is love so hard to find?

All i know is when u find it
Even earth can feel like you're in heaven
Tell me now,unlock the secret
Help us all to find the hidden treasure.

~editted from Jesse McCartney's song "Why is Love so Hard to Find?"~

weekend!!

The weekend is here. whee!! the much needed weekend to complete all the necessary work and have time to myself. weekdays are real hectic!! weekend is the time i get to rest,catch up on my work,really concentrate [and waste time in the process.oh boy!]

judging from my previous post,it seems that the Past has come back to haunt me.as u might have guessed,i wasnt that eager to welcome the Past's appearance in my life again,after i have put it away at the back of my mind. by today,i can safely say that i succeeded in suppressing its appearance and i hope it would stay that way.haha...in other words,i am free from the hauntings,which i think its a good thing. facing the Past can be tough sometimes,esp when it is a bitter one,the one you wish you could just forget and never to recall it.

today is Friendship Day (Happy Friendship Day!) and today also coincides with Annie's Birthday. (Happy Birthday Annie!!) :)